Argh! Rant and holidays

I had such a bad day at work today. The worst I've ever had but I'm lucky to have lovely people around me so they cheered me up and my smile is back on. But I hate feeling like this, 1/2 AAARRRGGGHHH and 1/2 boo-hoo.

Feeling fragile and just totally drained out. It's nearly 7pm and I'm thinking of skipping dinner and going straight to bed.......but then I'm worried I'll get out of bed at 10pm and end up eating sweetcorn out of the tin (after you drain the liquid it's the best thing ever!!!)

On a more positive and out-of-the-blue note, A invited me to join her in Fez (Morocco). She is going anyway for 4 weeks, and invited me to join her for the first week/few days, whatever up to me. It would be free accommodation since we'd stay at her mum's house and it would just be me and her. I'd be able to get a tan and finally ditch my opaque tights! So the only proper expense would be the plane tickets (courtesy of ryan air) and even though it's a bargain price it's still not really justifiable for me to go, I could definitely use that money to you know, pay bills and boring stuff like that. But then again it's a great opportunity, and she is really laid back which complements my slight Hitler qualities well.....as you can see, I'm not sure whether to go or not. I really want to, but I have boring adult responsibilities to think of......what should i do what should i do?!

The other thing is that I'm going to New York in March 2011 and I've already worked out how much i need to save etc and if I go to Morocco it's going to throw everything off kilter. I know it's only a bit of money but every penny counts when you're on the breadline! And I was also planning to go to Thailand August 2011 (my brothers idea) to celebrate my dad's bday..I think it's his 60th.

I knew that when i brought my flat luxuries such as holidays wouldn't be featuring in my life. Plus we know how I feel about holidays, blah blah blah, it is not a neccesity in my mind. And to make my head spin just a bit more I got my bloody credit card bill today. Bad timing lol

So argh argh argh.

Should i go or should stay!?