Give it the boot!

Yesterday I received my asos parcel. I will show you the rest later. But one thing I tried on straight away were these boots.

Let me just be straight: I hate them.

Lace up fold over cuff boot. £25 on sale. There's nothing wrong with the boot itself. But for me, and on me, YUCK

I was going for the 'toughen up a cute outfit' kinda look but it just doesn't work for me, I just look Like I've got someone else's feet.

And on a more practical side, they hurt like hell! I initially put them on the wrong feet (DUH!!!) but when I put them onto the right feet it didn't help.

So these are going straight back!

One of those days..

I actually wrote this on 14th december but never finished it. And just
shy of month its one of those days again
:(

[14/12/2010...Argh! Woe is me :( i had 'one of those days' and feeling
really drained now.

I didnt have a full blown turn and thank god no tears at work but
totally duuuuh brained. On the way home and of course having a really
crap journey. Delays and sardines argh!!

But nevermind tommorow is another day and hopefully it will be
better...it cant really be worse!]

Back to the present day. My day as a whole was ok actually. But the
morning
was all tears on the frigging train journey but by midday i was ok.

One of my biggest fears is that one day i'll need to get off the train
mid way and ill be stranded in the middle of nowhere. And apart from
feeling drained, my brain just goes...somewhere faraway ...and my
power of speech sometimes desserts
me too. How would i ask for help?! Its scary cos ive been in this
position a few times and i know that you have to ask for help. Noone
offers help. Noone asks if you are ok.

We live in hard times.

Schoolgirls

On the train and in a totally non weird/creepy way im observing
(spying/eavesdropping) on 3 school girls. Pretending to listen to
penny pod but nothing on. All i need is sunglasses!

I think they're maybe 13 or 14.

The thing that strikes me most about these girls and the others i see
on my travels is the lack of winter clothing. I'd say that out of
every 15 school girls, only 1 will be wearing what I'd consider a
jacket/coat suitable for winter. The others will just have on school
uniform and a scarf; maybe gloves and the geeky and/or trendy might
sport a hat.

How do they survive the cold?! And all they were on their feet are
pumps. I find it baffling.

However if i cast my mind back i think
I was once one of these Weird Girls. But i had an excuse. A decade or
so ago and coats were ugly/out of my mums price range. i'd rather
freeze then wear a ugly coat (and believe me, everything is ugly when
u try to match it to your brown and yellow uniform...)

However!! Schoolgirls of 2011 do not have this excuse. One word
Primark. Nuff said!! '20-30 gets you something on trend and practical.
These girls
Cant all be anti-primarni. If they are, then shame on them!

New Year Resolutions

2010 overall was a really good year for me. I didnt spending the last
week curled up in a ball crying and praying that the new year would be
better so thats definitely an improvement on a few past years!!

I dont really make new year resolutions - my approach is that every
day is a new day and an opportunity to improve yourself or your
situation or whatever, plus, teamed with lack of get go my main aim is
to just keep on going and try to smile as much as i can.

However, its time to grow up a bit and i think this year i do feel
more grown up and stronger in mental state so...

I think this year my main aim is to sort myself out financially and to
stop
spending on useless stuff and to make the most of what i have. Bulk
buying babywipes is ok and is practical for me but bulk buying flat
pumps is a stupidity and totally unneccesary for me.

My other aim is to sort out my time keeping. Ive gotten much better in
the last few months which is an obvious result frome being in a better
frame of mind but i so still have lapses where i just zone out and
boom i'm late. I might be having a 'freeze moment' but the world is
still spinning so my aim is to keep spinning with it.

My last aim is to improve on my tidiness at home. Im not a rock star
living in a hotel; i dont have my parents or a cleaner and i just need
to just learn to be tidier rather then let everything build up and
have to dedicate a day/week putting my beloved crap away. 'Do as you
go' is my 2011 motto!

I think slash hope these are doable and realistic for me and hey,
theres no harm in trying is there!

What are your new year resolutions? Share below!

Xoxo

Dear Twenty Eleven...

Hello everyone and a very happy new year to you all :)

I hope the first day of the new year has been a good one.

31/12/2010 I went to SF's house to see in the new year. Got home 4amish 1/1/11 and then went to bed about 6am. Woke up at about 4pm! Feeling very disorientated but happy I celebrated the new year, usually I'm sleeping during the count down!

Also, I think 2011 might be a lucky year for me as a 'great' thing happened to me on the way home from the party. K walked me home (no buses for ages) but on the way I offered to get us some chicken and chips. When we got to the chicken shop there were no wings only chicken pieces so K decided he didn't want anything so I ordered 1 piece of chicken and chips for myself, £1.50. It was about 3:30am and it was actually quite busy in the shop and hectic at the counter. I handed over my £1.50 and took a bag off the counter as the guy who was serving me had just put it on the counter. I don't know why but as soon as we got out of the shop I checked inside the box. IT WAS A KEBAB AND CHIPS!!!!!! I wanted to leg it down the road but K told me to chill out. So that is the best thing that has happened to me this year, i hope 2011 brings me many more kebabs lol